DAY 53

juicy juicy juicy! i am unsure as to whether to keep juicing or not. it still feels good to drink juice, but i don't really feel at my optimal health on only juice. so i was thinking about starting on solid foods, especially when gaya told me that she was considering it. should i support her through day 60 but continuing to juice, or does she have enough support already? in the mean time, i'm adding some vegetable fiber to my juices as of today. weirdness in my tum, but not entirely unpleasant!

otherwise, i've been feeling physically empowered by helping my friends move, and have done some yoga that doesn't hurt (boil issues again, less than the best). most importantly, i am diving into Susan Reintjes' Third Eye Open that gaya lent me. what a wonderful book! and my friend knows her!!! i'm looking to see if she has any public lectures in the area since she lives in my hood. i'm excited to see gaya and to go to nyc with her! my emotions are dominated by sadness, though i think i need to have an anger/frustration session. releasing my anger will help heal the boils, i'm procrastinating because of hesitancy as to what will come out.... i'm considering deeply my life, the choices i am making, what brings me the most joy and more sadness, trying to investigate my sadness, my emotions surrounding people. what, ultimately, shall i do? what is best and most joyful for me? how can i be the best emilyrose i can be to the best friends and companions i choose?

3qt greeeeen with fiber: cuc, celery, kale, spin, lemon. i want cilantro!

day 43

has left me feeling weird. i am out of sorts as i blog, and my body has been all over the place today. my sugar fell to 50 around 2 then shot up to 223 by four. aside from general out of place feelings, i am joyful today because i spent good time with friends i had lost touch with. shared lots! am exhausted feel drained but ready for tomorrow. a little sadness.

1qt cuc celery green pep spin lemon
1qt cuccuc celery sprouts spin lemon ginger
1oz wheatgrass

juicyjuice

beautifully emotional day, i like to remind myself that the purges and emotional pains i experience through detox are beautiful and necessary. i thank the universe for the gift of gaya and all of her bountiful love! thank you for reminding me of how much my body is healing, dearest! you are a blessing!

1/2 qt yummy green from gaya! (not sure whats in it)
1 qt celery cuc dandelion sprouts carrot parsley ginger spinach garlic (eek)
1 qt lots of cuc!!!! mmm celery green pep lemon

supplements: lovelovelove

Juice Feasting Day 41

I had a good day at home today with Gaya. Drank carrot juice, yummy like candy. Took too much insulin afterward and drank OJ. 

Day 40

Today i discovered yoga! Took 2 classes. Looking forward to integrating it into my life. Nothing really significant is happening with my diabetes. Not happening like I thought it would be. Though yes, bumps are smaller, not leaking in armpit, face acne clearing some around hair line, skin brighter. Happy to be in VaBeach!

Juice Feasting Day 39.

me on day 39

day 38

salut tout le monde! i juiced at my friend gene's cookout today! ok and it was scary because i was honestly reallyreally wanting some garden fresh salsa that was out on the table. i really had to fight it! i made it to 4 quarts today! my little places are kind of freaking out on me, i think it may be because i've been taking so many probiotics after the colonic. it's not really comfortable though. oooooooh how i miss the arise and shine herbs! it was so nice releasing like 2 to 3 times a day, easily, and feeling so light and clean. i don't understand why my body has such issues eliminating on this juice! i'm trying not to be frustrated by it, but it's difficult and odd to see like my hands getting thinner (i can see more bones) but to still have a pooch that is uncomfortable! some of that pooch is definitely the oils i'm taking though. i love them :) oooh especially this coconut oil it's my new obsession. i'm so ingesting the maximum recommended 4 tsp a day heehee. i'm back from the cookout now, packing my things so i'll be able to leave right after teaching tomorrow, and i'm getting ready to enjoy "the secret," all curled up in bed! lovelovejuicejuice i'm exhausted! and so proud of myself for dragging my ass out of bed every day to teach. seriously, that's really a big thing for me. :)

2qt: cuc, celery, green pep, ginger, bok choy, sprouts, spin, lemon
2qt: cuc, celery, red pep, ginger, spin, romaine, lime (mmmm sweet and hearty!)

37 days!

oy vey, what a day! i am so loving juicing with my new wonderful juicer! the green juice really got me through a long day of teaching, a happy personal celebration and then an unexpected late night listening session to a dear friend who is going through a lot. i had a joyful surprise career-wise, or professionally today! i am trying to deal with the fact that it's going to preclude me from attending a joyful event of healthy green with my love. a greatgreat loss, i'm a little devastated by this choice i have to make between two things i really want, knowing that one i really need and cannot give up. i hope this will not hurt the one i love.

juices are beautiful
2qt: celery, kale, frisee, ginger, red pepper, garlic
1qt: celery, cuc, kale, green pep, lemon, ginger

day 32 is right! (pics of me at Ani on day 33 too)

wow! today could have gone really badly in one of my friend's lives, and i was literally crying softly in his bathroom so he couldn't hear ---- but all things work out, and this really did too! found out as i was stepping up to help ameliorate the situation as much as possible...that the situation had been remedied, so no more crying and fear! i'm so grateful for the well-being of those i really love! today was a great day in so many ways! had lots of fun in whole foods, buying myself supplements and superfoods and water jugs! plus, manhal gave me his amazing juicer that cuts my juicing time in half! i can put whole stalks of celery in at a time, and it can even juice wheatgrass! i'm soooo excited with it! being able to buy awesome veggies and juice them (this juicer is just so fun!) so quickly really lifts my spirits. just like that first sip of juice in the morning, or my first sip of green powder in water, a first sip of alkaline water. just like the awesome feeling of joy beaming through my body after had some major spirulina today! manhal helped me grade for a while at cale's, where i ironed a certain little dress for a certain precious someone. also graded with holly today at the open eye cafe -- it was great to see her, it's been weeks! she rode her bike to campus and i was jealous! oh, and another blessing: the infamous spot that opened at weaver street was getting puffy and painful yesterday. it got a little bigger today (about half the size it was that last time) and opened with just a tiny bit of coaxing on my part. drained so much, felt so good! and i think i even removed the core (or, rather, the wound is really healing itself by pushing the core up and out the body!), a not quite solid not quite squishy white thickish thread encased kind of in blood. weird, gross, out of my body!! i feel loads better today than i have these past few days, and i'm so appreciative of that! it feels good to be able to treat my body to the nutrients, produce, supplements that it wants! i was just so happy wandering through the produce, choosing everything that called to me, that my body wanted! and yes, i drank 4 quarts today! and only one spoonful of hemp seed oil :) i did the yoga session everybody. it was uh quite hard at times but so enjoyable. i'm so excited to learn more this weekend with gaya, and in classes here! i may ask my friend jackie to do some with me too, as she's taught it lots before. but yoga with g makes me the happiest!

2 qt: cuc, celery, lemon, red kale, spin, ginger
2 qt: cuc, celery, lime, bok choy, crunchy sprouts, red pepper, jalapeño, onion (oh, it was heavenly!!!)

supplements: green pow, hemp seed oil, bee pollen, gse, gse spray, epsolm salt bath, lots of deionized water!!, caprilycare, probiotics!!, spirulina!!, scarban stuff, circulation balm, skin brushies think thats it

lovelovegreenlove

31eme jour

emilyrose's blood sugar is low, so this posting is a bit scattered and weak. but i must post since i didn't yesterday! ok so i'm a little worried about my body, it isn't feeling well these days. i'm tired, feel down, not at all uplifted, and weird bumps are popping up, new stuff is draining, yeast is attacking. why? i don't think i'm getting quite the nutrition i should, feel i'm really lacking on many levels, that the hard economic times since the joyous juicing chez gaya have caught up with me. i'm craving food hardcore, not just raw food (big weakness!) but cooked food and meat and even a chocolate chip cookie wes was eating. i think i'm taking too much hemp seed oil (bought another one) and not exercising enough. some negative things entered my body and emotions today, i think they're coming out here. i think i need gaya's help and guidance. i miss my juicing buddy!!
but, luckily, today was payday!! so i can really help myself out some, i think! i'm excited to juice sprouts, a suggestion of gaya's that i think i'll absolutely love! aaaand the wheatgrass. g suggested a hand juicer that's inexpensive, and i think i really want to get one. i craaaaave its nutrients, and the taste is so bizarre, so good, so shocking to the body.
i feel weird so i'm going to end this post with my juices. two today, and late!
cuc, celery, bok choy and kale, ginger, lemon

oy day 29!

what a day! after so much sleep this weekend, i couldn't get to sleep until after 3 last night, then was up at 6 to start the day -- needless to say, i am exhausted at 8pm! today's morning was really quite trying: i thought today was payday, and after several hopings and letdowns, i learned that i get paid wednesday! a pre-teaching panic attack! fear: how will i make it until wednesday? i can't quit the juice fast, what can i do?! despair only for a second, and then i pulled myself together! knowing that i WOULD get to wednesday, that i WOULD be ready emotionally to give my students a wonderful class -- i reminded myself that there is no crying in french class, and taught a great class! i made them laugh really hard several times: silly antics like clapping outrageously enthusiastically with a huge grin on my face when i felt they should be giving their classmates' skits better applause, slipping into one sentence of french spoken with a southern accent. a little silliness makes french class bearable for an hour and a half during the summer!
my body feels really weird today, i'm cleansing the yeast and something else cause my face just got ridiculous! like 4 weird spots all of a sudden! i wonder what is going on, but just accept it as something else that is no longer within my body, as healing process. the former boils are so weird and cool, they've formed new-skin little indentions in my body where there used to be drainage. it feels so good! :)
so things worked out, praise mother gaia and yaweh! cale is a blessed soul and procured enough veggies for me to have 2 juices tomorrow! i'll supplement with green powder water -- i'm drinking one now as i blog! thank goodness that the wondrous gaya has been so generous with her supplements, too! i have enough honey still too, for if i get low! nothing can stop juices!

2qt: cuc, celery,spin, kale, ginger, lemon, cilantro, parsley

accoutrements: bee pollen, hemp seed oil, scar ban, green powder!, gse and gse spray, garlic mhm love, hope, and a little lust in there too

28 days!

i feel the beauty of green, and love all that it brings to me! i'm going through another weird detoxification -- my lower spot has been actively draining, the yeast is coming out strong, and several little spots are releasing on my face. so i care for them and love them with epsom salt baths and scrubs, and i wage war against that yeast with gse, one of the most wonderful extracts! my senses feel awakened today, and feelings of intense love undulate through my body! after doing some constructive things chez moi, i spent some time with pals manhal, cale and kinitra playing cards. cale and i finally won (officially), breaking 500 points. i felt confident and alert, positive even when we would get set back or lose our bid. i enjoy playing cards not only because card counting and strategy makes me use my brain differently, but also because i know that when i stay positive and happy throughout the downs of cards, i am doing well emotionally, mentally and energetically. getting good sleep this weekend makes me energized even at this late hour, and i am excited to do some reading before hitting the hay. i have constructive and fun plans for tomorrow, including major lesson planning, exam writing, and grocery store trip to stock myself and cale/manhal! yes! i welcome variety to my juice!

2 qt: cuc, celery, lemon, ginger, kale
1 qt: cuc celery, kale, red pepper, spinach, watercress, ginger, sea salt

accoutrements: gse, gse wound spray, scar ban, yoga, epsom bath, bee pollen, hemp seed oil, green powder!

day 27 already?

emrose is tired! she had a lazy day, though she started with some release, and some yoga stretches and exercise. she wishes to arise early enough every day to do this, as it energizes her! she continued the endless grading, took a nice bath, and watched some harry potter at cale's! her bs was 214 around 3, as she had forgotten to take her insulin when she awoke! yeast is irritating her body, but there was some new (and major!) release from an old boil. craving of the day: gaya's flax balls- she would love one in her mouth right now!!!

3 qts of the usual greenies!: cuc, spin, celery, lemon, ginger, green pep and jalepeno, watercress. she did have an urge to juice one of the three emergency carrots she keeps, but didn't succomb to the yeasties. she also lusted after some organic raw cacao and goji energy bars at the weaver. she bought kale instead :)

nightynight!

day 26

sipping my last juice as i blog (honestly, it's been hard to get just to 2 1/2 today!), oy today's been a day! awoke this morning feeling really dehydrated, quite terrible not to have had better water chez moi! made an emergency trip to weaver street, where i procured an obscene amount of alkaline, spring and mineral waters. topped it off with some nice produce and oooooh yeah! the bank account has been emptied! look forward to monday, when i may produce and supplement myself to my heart's content! yessss! i also hope to see my fam on monday -- will be choice! other post payday plans? have stewart and kristen over -- i want them to try bee pollen and hemp seed oil (stew has quite the scholarly interest in the hemp plant and writings about it from the middle ages to the present. he's quite interested in all plants and their nutritive/other properties. he and gaya should really talk it out, i think. he and i have plans for nature walks, plant discussions, even some exercise ensemble!). but mainly i want to make them some juice. i'm thinking of making a cucumber and watermelon one, then have them try some green too. it'll be really nice to make juice for someone, reminiscent of gaya juicing. i put love in my juices for others, whoever they are, and it'll be cool to introduce stew and kristen to it. kristen told me they've been looking on craigslist for a blender, just to make juices. awwwww. last exciting plan for payday? rawfoodfest tickets are ours!

spent the day chez moi, some grading, little cleaning, sleeping in. i talked to my mom and wes briefly. i was invited to a lovely july 4th celebration at my friend kinitra's -- but i knew there would be food for 50 (there was), including ribs, hot dogs, burgers, mac n cheez, roasted corn (mmmm, corn) and brownies (there were), and all of kinitra's family who would be wondering what the hell i was doing drinking green juice out of a mason jar! i had plans to swim tonight but it uh started to rain. so cale, manhal and i played pinochle. it was quite nice, cale was acting a fool , but swimming would have been nice! tried to get a little exercise in, did some yoga stretches and some cute crunches and girl push ups instead!

sooooo the green juices are kind of hard to get down these days. i feel better after i drink them, but honestly they're not so appealing to me. que triste. what to do?

2 1/2 qts of juice today: cuc, spin, celery, kale, watercress, jalepeno, ginger, lemon

22 opens arboretum experience

while today's beginning and middle were rough (my classes were rough, could not get students to participate and some negative things were said in my classroom), its dusk could not have been more beautiful! i drank a delicious green juice while cale and manhal had dinner, and then in celebration of the day's beauty we decided to walk together (with little mojo!) around the arboretum at Chapel Hill. What beauty, what lush green! the three of us were truly amazed by how wonderful it was to be surrounded with all the joyous greens, all the delicate and bizarrely beautiful plants that goddess gaya (a different one) and mother nature offer us! i made a plan to go grade compositions there tomorrow, and to spend more time there as a rule! Cale was called to lead our party down different paths, and he even hugged a tree! a great experience communing with nature and my dear friends!
the menses are giving me a hard time. i'm expelling so much, am bloated (it affects my intestines, too!) and the cramps are painful. i just keep remembering that this is my first period on the cleanse so my uterus must be cleansing hard core! a late night enema has helped the bloated feeling and expelled some uck!

juices!!!
2 qt: cuc, celery, watercress, green pepper, kale, lemon, ginger
1 qt: cuc, celery, spin, jalepeno, green pep, garlic, turmeric (my breath was kickin!)

supplements: hemp seed oil, green pow, bee pollen, honey, morning lemon water, skin brush, late nite enema (yeah!)