54, pseudo

i've incorporated fiber into my juices again today, and tomorrow i'm venturing into eating green things! i bought some bibb lettuce at whole foods today, as well as ingredients for nut/seed mylks for sunday. mmmmm emrose is excited! i schemed my way into a refill of insulin from student health today, even though my doctor wasn't there to see me/prescribe me. now i don't have to pay the $60 fee. yesss! i also talked with lauren today, a friend gaya and i will be visiting in nyc. not only has she welcomed us chez elle, she and bf josh are most probably going to see radiohead the same night as g and i are! no, wait, it gets better! she brings up my juicing and says she really wants to get into making juices, she wants to buy a juicer and every thing! i am so excited to make juices for her, to talk her ear off about it, and i know gaya will be too! yayayay. and there is also an organic co-op and parking spaces right by her house. ooooh yeah! can't wait to have this wonderful trip with gaya, and for my friends to meet!

4qt finale (no worries, i'm still having at least 1qt a day from here on out. i don't think i could live optimally without!): bok choy, kale, celery, cuc, green pep (in 2qt), cilantro, lemon


lovepeacewisdom!

DAY 53

juicy juicy juicy! i am unsure as to whether to keep juicing or not. it still feels good to drink juice, but i don't really feel at my optimal health on only juice. so i was thinking about starting on solid foods, especially when gaya told me that she was considering it. should i support her through day 60 but continuing to juice, or does she have enough support already? in the mean time, i'm adding some vegetable fiber to my juices as of today. weirdness in my tum, but not entirely unpleasant!

otherwise, i've been feeling physically empowered by helping my friends move, and have done some yoga that doesn't hurt (boil issues again, less than the best). most importantly, i am diving into Susan Reintjes' Third Eye Open that gaya lent me. what a wonderful book! and my friend knows her!!! i'm looking to see if she has any public lectures in the area since she lives in my hood. i'm excited to see gaya and to go to nyc with her! my emotions are dominated by sadness, though i think i need to have an anger/frustration session. releasing my anger will help heal the boils, i'm procrastinating because of hesitancy as to what will come out.... i'm considering deeply my life, the choices i am making, what brings me the most joy and more sadness, trying to investigate my sadness, my emotions surrounding people. what, ultimately, shall i do? what is best and most joyful for me? how can i be the best emilyrose i can be to the best friends and companions i choose?

3qt greeeeen with fiber: cuc, celery, kale, spin, lemon. i want cilantro!

day 43

has left me feeling weird. i am out of sorts as i blog, and my body has been all over the place today. my sugar fell to 50 around 2 then shot up to 223 by four. aside from general out of place feelings, i am joyful today because i spent good time with friends i had lost touch with. shared lots! am exhausted feel drained but ready for tomorrow. a little sadness.

1qt cuc celery green pep spin lemon
1qt cuccuc celery sprouts spin lemon ginger
1oz wheatgrass

juicyjuice

beautifully emotional day, i like to remind myself that the purges and emotional pains i experience through detox are beautiful and necessary. i thank the universe for the gift of gaya and all of her bountiful love! thank you for reminding me of how much my body is healing, dearest! you are a blessing!

1/2 qt yummy green from gaya! (not sure whats in it)
1 qt celery cuc dandelion sprouts carrot parsley ginger spinach garlic (eek)
1 qt lots of cuc!!!! mmm celery green pep lemon

supplements: lovelovelove

Juice Feasting Day 41

I had a good day at home today with Gaya. Drank carrot juice, yummy like candy. Took too much insulin afterward and drank OJ. 

Day 40

Today i discovered yoga! Took 2 classes. Looking forward to integrating it into my life. Nothing really significant is happening with my diabetes. Not happening like I thought it would be. Though yes, bumps are smaller, not leaking in armpit, face acne clearing some around hair line, skin brighter. Happy to be in VaBeach!

Juice Feasting Day 39.

me on day 39

day 38

salut tout le monde! i juiced at my friend gene's cookout today! ok and it was scary because i was honestly reallyreally wanting some garden fresh salsa that was out on the table. i really had to fight it! i made it to 4 quarts today! my little places are kind of freaking out on me, i think it may be because i've been taking so many probiotics after the colonic. it's not really comfortable though. oooooooh how i miss the arise and shine herbs! it was so nice releasing like 2 to 3 times a day, easily, and feeling so light and clean. i don't understand why my body has such issues eliminating on this juice! i'm trying not to be frustrated by it, but it's difficult and odd to see like my hands getting thinner (i can see more bones) but to still have a pooch that is uncomfortable! some of that pooch is definitely the oils i'm taking though. i love them :) oooh especially this coconut oil it's my new obsession. i'm so ingesting the maximum recommended 4 tsp a day heehee. i'm back from the cookout now, packing my things so i'll be able to leave right after teaching tomorrow, and i'm getting ready to enjoy "the secret," all curled up in bed! lovelovejuicejuice i'm exhausted! and so proud of myself for dragging my ass out of bed every day to teach. seriously, that's really a big thing for me. :)

2qt: cuc, celery, green pep, ginger, bok choy, sprouts, spin, lemon
2qt: cuc, celery, red pep, ginger, spin, romaine, lime (mmmm sweet and hearty!)

37 days!

oy vey, what a day! i am so loving juicing with my new wonderful juicer! the green juice really got me through a long day of teaching, a happy personal celebration and then an unexpected late night listening session to a dear friend who is going through a lot. i had a joyful surprise career-wise, or professionally today! i am trying to deal with the fact that it's going to preclude me from attending a joyful event of healthy green with my love. a greatgreat loss, i'm a little devastated by this choice i have to make between two things i really want, knowing that one i really need and cannot give up. i hope this will not hurt the one i love.

juices are beautiful
2qt: celery, kale, frisee, ginger, red pepper, garlic
1qt: celery, cuc, kale, green pep, lemon, ginger

day 32 is right! (pics of me at Ani on day 33 too)

wow! today could have gone really badly in one of my friend's lives, and i was literally crying softly in his bathroom so he couldn't hear ---- but all things work out, and this really did too! found out as i was stepping up to help ameliorate the situation as much as possible...that the situation had been remedied, so no more crying and fear! i'm so grateful for the well-being of those i really love! today was a great day in so many ways! had lots of fun in whole foods, buying myself supplements and superfoods and water jugs! plus, manhal gave me his amazing juicer that cuts my juicing time in half! i can put whole stalks of celery in at a time, and it can even juice wheatgrass! i'm soooo excited with it! being able to buy awesome veggies and juice them (this juicer is just so fun!) so quickly really lifts my spirits. just like that first sip of juice in the morning, or my first sip of green powder in water, a first sip of alkaline water. just like the awesome feeling of joy beaming through my body after had some major spirulina today! manhal helped me grade for a while at cale's, where i ironed a certain little dress for a certain precious someone. also graded with holly today at the open eye cafe -- it was great to see her, it's been weeks! she rode her bike to campus and i was jealous! oh, and another blessing: the infamous spot that opened at weaver street was getting puffy and painful yesterday. it got a little bigger today (about half the size it was that last time) and opened with just a tiny bit of coaxing on my part. drained so much, felt so good! and i think i even removed the core (or, rather, the wound is really healing itself by pushing the core up and out the body!), a not quite solid not quite squishy white thickish thread encased kind of in blood. weird, gross, out of my body!! i feel loads better today than i have these past few days, and i'm so appreciative of that! it feels good to be able to treat my body to the nutrients, produce, supplements that it wants! i was just so happy wandering through the produce, choosing everything that called to me, that my body wanted! and yes, i drank 4 quarts today! and only one spoonful of hemp seed oil :) i did the yoga session everybody. it was uh quite hard at times but so enjoyable. i'm so excited to learn more this weekend with gaya, and in classes here! i may ask my friend jackie to do some with me too, as she's taught it lots before. but yoga with g makes me the happiest!

2 qt: cuc, celery, lemon, red kale, spin, ginger
2 qt: cuc, celery, lime, bok choy, crunchy sprouts, red pepper, jalapeño, onion (oh, it was heavenly!!!)

supplements: green pow, hemp seed oil, bee pollen, gse, gse spray, epsolm salt bath, lots of deionized water!!, caprilycare, probiotics!!, spirulina!!, scarban stuff, circulation balm, skin brushies think thats it

lovelovegreenlove

31eme jour

emilyrose's blood sugar is low, so this posting is a bit scattered and weak. but i must post since i didn't yesterday! ok so i'm a little worried about my body, it isn't feeling well these days. i'm tired, feel down, not at all uplifted, and weird bumps are popping up, new stuff is draining, yeast is attacking. why? i don't think i'm getting quite the nutrition i should, feel i'm really lacking on many levels, that the hard economic times since the joyous juicing chez gaya have caught up with me. i'm craving food hardcore, not just raw food (big weakness!) but cooked food and meat and even a chocolate chip cookie wes was eating. i think i'm taking too much hemp seed oil (bought another one) and not exercising enough. some negative things entered my body and emotions today, i think they're coming out here. i think i need gaya's help and guidance. i miss my juicing buddy!!
but, luckily, today was payday!! so i can really help myself out some, i think! i'm excited to juice sprouts, a suggestion of gaya's that i think i'll absolutely love! aaaand the wheatgrass. g suggested a hand juicer that's inexpensive, and i think i really want to get one. i craaaaave its nutrients, and the taste is so bizarre, so good, so shocking to the body.
i feel weird so i'm going to end this post with my juices. two today, and late!
cuc, celery, bok choy and kale, ginger, lemon

oy day 29!

what a day! after so much sleep this weekend, i couldn't get to sleep until after 3 last night, then was up at 6 to start the day -- needless to say, i am exhausted at 8pm! today's morning was really quite trying: i thought today was payday, and after several hopings and letdowns, i learned that i get paid wednesday! a pre-teaching panic attack! fear: how will i make it until wednesday? i can't quit the juice fast, what can i do?! despair only for a second, and then i pulled myself together! knowing that i WOULD get to wednesday, that i WOULD be ready emotionally to give my students a wonderful class -- i reminded myself that there is no crying in french class, and taught a great class! i made them laugh really hard several times: silly antics like clapping outrageously enthusiastically with a huge grin on my face when i felt they should be giving their classmates' skits better applause, slipping into one sentence of french spoken with a southern accent. a little silliness makes french class bearable for an hour and a half during the summer!
my body feels really weird today, i'm cleansing the yeast and something else cause my face just got ridiculous! like 4 weird spots all of a sudden! i wonder what is going on, but just accept it as something else that is no longer within my body, as healing process. the former boils are so weird and cool, they've formed new-skin little indentions in my body where there used to be drainage. it feels so good! :)
so things worked out, praise mother gaia and yaweh! cale is a blessed soul and procured enough veggies for me to have 2 juices tomorrow! i'll supplement with green powder water -- i'm drinking one now as i blog! thank goodness that the wondrous gaya has been so generous with her supplements, too! i have enough honey still too, for if i get low! nothing can stop juices!

2qt: cuc, celery,spin, kale, ginger, lemon, cilantro, parsley

accoutrements: bee pollen, hemp seed oil, scar ban, green powder!, gse and gse spray, garlic mhm love, hope, and a little lust in there too

28 days!

i feel the beauty of green, and love all that it brings to me! i'm going through another weird detoxification -- my lower spot has been actively draining, the yeast is coming out strong, and several little spots are releasing on my face. so i care for them and love them with epsom salt baths and scrubs, and i wage war against that yeast with gse, one of the most wonderful extracts! my senses feel awakened today, and feelings of intense love undulate through my body! after doing some constructive things chez moi, i spent some time with pals manhal, cale and kinitra playing cards. cale and i finally won (officially), breaking 500 points. i felt confident and alert, positive even when we would get set back or lose our bid. i enjoy playing cards not only because card counting and strategy makes me use my brain differently, but also because i know that when i stay positive and happy throughout the downs of cards, i am doing well emotionally, mentally and energetically. getting good sleep this weekend makes me energized even at this late hour, and i am excited to do some reading before hitting the hay. i have constructive and fun plans for tomorrow, including major lesson planning, exam writing, and grocery store trip to stock myself and cale/manhal! yes! i welcome variety to my juice!

2 qt: cuc, celery, lemon, ginger, kale
1 qt: cuc celery, kale, red pepper, spinach, watercress, ginger, sea salt

accoutrements: gse, gse wound spray, scar ban, yoga, epsom bath, bee pollen, hemp seed oil, green powder!

day 27 already?

emrose is tired! she had a lazy day, though she started with some release, and some yoga stretches and exercise. she wishes to arise early enough every day to do this, as it energizes her! she continued the endless grading, took a nice bath, and watched some harry potter at cale's! her bs was 214 around 3, as she had forgotten to take her insulin when she awoke! yeast is irritating her body, but there was some new (and major!) release from an old boil. craving of the day: gaya's flax balls- she would love one in her mouth right now!!!

3 qts of the usual greenies!: cuc, spin, celery, lemon, ginger, green pep and jalepeno, watercress. she did have an urge to juice one of the three emergency carrots she keeps, but didn't succomb to the yeasties. she also lusted after some organic raw cacao and goji energy bars at the weaver. she bought kale instead :)

nightynight!

day 26

sipping my last juice as i blog (honestly, it's been hard to get just to 2 1/2 today!), oy today's been a day! awoke this morning feeling really dehydrated, quite terrible not to have had better water chez moi! made an emergency trip to weaver street, where i procured an obscene amount of alkaline, spring and mineral waters. topped it off with some nice produce and oooooh yeah! the bank account has been emptied! look forward to monday, when i may produce and supplement myself to my heart's content! yessss! i also hope to see my fam on monday -- will be choice! other post payday plans? have stewart and kristen over -- i want them to try bee pollen and hemp seed oil (stew has quite the scholarly interest in the hemp plant and writings about it from the middle ages to the present. he's quite interested in all plants and their nutritive/other properties. he and gaya should really talk it out, i think. he and i have plans for nature walks, plant discussions, even some exercise ensemble!). but mainly i want to make them some juice. i'm thinking of making a cucumber and watermelon one, then have them try some green too. it'll be really nice to make juice for someone, reminiscent of gaya juicing. i put love in my juices for others, whoever they are, and it'll be cool to introduce stew and kristen to it. kristen told me they've been looking on craigslist for a blender, just to make juices. awwwww. last exciting plan for payday? rawfoodfest tickets are ours!

spent the day chez moi, some grading, little cleaning, sleeping in. i talked to my mom and wes briefly. i was invited to a lovely july 4th celebration at my friend kinitra's -- but i knew there would be food for 50 (there was), including ribs, hot dogs, burgers, mac n cheez, roasted corn (mmmm, corn) and brownies (there were), and all of kinitra's family who would be wondering what the hell i was doing drinking green juice out of a mason jar! i had plans to swim tonight but it uh started to rain. so cale, manhal and i played pinochle. it was quite nice, cale was acting a fool , but swimming would have been nice! tried to get a little exercise in, did some yoga stretches and some cute crunches and girl push ups instead!

sooooo the green juices are kind of hard to get down these days. i feel better after i drink them, but honestly they're not so appealing to me. que triste. what to do?

2 1/2 qts of juice today: cuc, spin, celery, kale, watercress, jalepeno, ginger, lemon

22 opens arboretum experience

while today's beginning and middle were rough (my classes were rough, could not get students to participate and some negative things were said in my classroom), its dusk could not have been more beautiful! i drank a delicious green juice while cale and manhal had dinner, and then in celebration of the day's beauty we decided to walk together (with little mojo!) around the arboretum at Chapel Hill. What beauty, what lush green! the three of us were truly amazed by how wonderful it was to be surrounded with all the joyous greens, all the delicate and bizarrely beautiful plants that goddess gaya (a different one) and mother nature offer us! i made a plan to go grade compositions there tomorrow, and to spend more time there as a rule! Cale was called to lead our party down different paths, and he even hugged a tree! a great experience communing with nature and my dear friends!
the menses are giving me a hard time. i'm expelling so much, am bloated (it affects my intestines, too!) and the cramps are painful. i just keep remembering that this is my first period on the cleanse so my uterus must be cleansing hard core! a late night enema has helped the bloated feeling and expelled some uck!

juices!!!
2 qt: cuc, celery, watercress, green pepper, kale, lemon, ginger
1 qt: cuc, celery, spin, jalepeno, green pep, garlic, turmeric (my breath was kickin!)

supplements: hemp seed oil, green pow, bee pollen, honey, morning lemon water, skin brush, late nite enema (yeah!)

juicy day 22

today has been beautiful! i got to see my two brothers wes and casey, sisterabby and dad today! it was so wonderful to connect with them, and i look forward to spending more time together with them next monday or tuesday! love them so much, they're all beautiful people. i also talked with my grandmother, inez! she is just so loving! hope to see her, my uncle, aunt and cousins in august too! the friday explosion is healing so well, and so is the torso spot -- thanks to some gse spray that gaya lovingly gave on fri. just so happy about this body! school is going great, stayed in my office till 4 doing work. also bought some major produce! thanks birthday gift certificate from inez!

jucies!
1 qt: cuc, celery, romaine, kale, ginger, lemon
1 qt: cuc, celery, spin, green pep, garlic, jalepeno, greeeeen powder (yes! i love!)
1 qt: celery, kale, romaine, jalepeno, tumeric, celtic sea salt

bee pollen, honey, hemp oil, gse sprays

lovelovelove

day 21! celebrated 3 weeks with gaya!

i feel so lucky and joyful this weekend! gaya came to visit, and we got to spend our 21 day juicing anniversary together! i got a special day 21 gift of a full body massage, and i can't express how wonderful it was, in manymany ways! gaya also helped me to begin cleaning my apt friday, which is really helping me during my cleanse! thanks, beautiful! friday morning a huge boil popped up, and i had a really hard morning. amazingly, it got bigger and came to a head naturally throughout the day. a sign that my body is healing itself quickly and effectively! it (haha) really started um healing while gaya and i were shopping at the coop on friday (in one day -- a first!!); and while it was not the most comfortable place for such a healing event, it was wonderful to release the way i did! gaya and i had a great weekend, juicing together was great, and she juiced for me all of saturday!! (you can see her blog for exactly what we had :) ) today, after being treated to a massage, we made a quart and a half of green juice together:

cuc, celery, arugala, cilantro, basil, lemon

and then pizza juice!!! yummies: spin, jalepeno, romaine, arugala, onion, basil, garlic, tomato and tomatillo scrumptious!

my friend claudia's birthday party was fun, and the pizza juice really helped me not crave the authentic mexican food that they served!

after returning home, i realized i had to get some more veggies to make my last juice:

cuc, celery, romaine, lemon, garlic, spin, ginger and watercress. it was kind of difficult to drink, but i really felt a pick me up afterwards.

vive le 21eme jour!!! vive l'amour et le jus vert!

juice feast day 17 and 18

this juice feast is bringing so much to me, i'm so happy to be doing this for myself, my body, and my future! i had two revelations yesterday. first, that green juice is the chambord of champions (see pic), and secondly, after a hard and painful realization (see sad pic), that i need to bring this cleanse and purification, this act of love, to my whole self. i am taking control, putting order in my professional and creative life. grounding myself here (though my roots were, are, so joyful with my love!). i look forward to the good productivity that will soon come to me in my life, i envision myself being the best emilyrose that i can be. and that's fucking beautiful! i also blissfully see sharing that best emilyrose with gaya. (let's be honest, babe, you're the only one reading this. i choose to be sappy and express my love to you here! so i'm sad not to be physically with you in the near future, but so happy to be with you!) i had two low blood sugars today, one during class. so i'm contemplating cutting down my lantis for the first time. how exciting! my juices have been green and beautiful!! here's the lovely and rich produce that feeds me the past two days!

cuc, celery, lemon, ginger, spinach, dino kale, romaine, watercress (yes!)

i'm just finishing my third quart of today, made it to three and a half yesterday. i'm too exhausted to write the blood sugars. off to sleep blissfully. i am filled with joy, overwhelmed with love! and have added an element to a certain mantra: cleanse, purify and EXAMINE thyself.

juicing 16!

it's been a long day, having taught (though with a 2 hr break) from 9h45 to 2h45. oy! went to trader joes and got some lovely produce, including some live watercress, which i'm really excited about. won at cards again (wootwoot!) and had a good but intense conversation with a dear friend. despite some emotional letdowns today, as well as a high bs this evening, i am feeling good on the feast. actually drank 4,5 qts today! amazing!

juices, 3 1/2 qt: celery, cuc, dandelion, collards, romaine, grapes (high blood sugar!), lemon, ginger, cilantro
1 qt: celery, cuc, romaine, lemon, ginger (lots!mmm!)

supplements: gse, garlic in an interesting place....., bee pollen

on a closing note, i feel an enema is due. dammit all i know i'll feel better, so why not just do it? larry david in curb your enthusiasm has a similar moment that cale reminded me of today: "get a colonoscopy! everyone does! just get one!" nighty night!

15!

hi everyone! i'm juicing but lonely here! when i went to the local coop to get romaine and kale (mmmm) today, an artist had built like an 8 foot tall sandcastle to celebrate the coop's anniversary. it was awesome. teaching was good today, got lots done at school -- and enjoyed my bus rides around town....no car today! i wish walking places weren't hindered by the fact that i live off a highway. oh, and i won at cards today! pinnacle, much more complex than setback yesterday. i got 4 quarts down today, but i'm tireeeeed. here's what they had:

1st 3 qt: dandelion, cuc, celery, collards, ginger, lemon
qt 4: dandelion, cuc, celery, collards, ginger, lemon, kale (dino!), red romaine.

lovelove sleepies

day 14! two week mark!

i'm so happy that gaya and i have made two weeks of our lives gloriously green and juicy! i had a beautiful connection with my body friday night, i know that it was because of the juicing. i had a headache behind my right eye all evening, and while watching a relaxation yoga session i decided to try something. placing my palms first over my eyes and letting the muscles drop down, i applied pressure around my eyes, going where my body called me to go. it was such a powerful feeling i had, a real communication with my body! amazing! and then, after about fifteen minutes my fingers traveled to where my brows meet my nose. as i moved up to my lower center forehead, i felt a warm joy (a strange pleasure that is difficult to describe) rush though my body. i smiled with joy, and a split second later realized that i had felt my third eye. i really feel that my body is thanking me for taking care of it by juicing, and that my mindbodyspirit was calling me to continue doing so despite some economic issues i'm facing. i felt such joy and peace within myself; and i continued to touch my face, falling into a relaxation that led to a deep sleep.

i've been treating my body to lots of sleep this weekend, which i know it needs! i've had ups and downs (just a few), and besides missing my juicing partner terribly i'm quite happy. this evening my blood sugar is high: 212. emrose forgot to give herself insulin for the juices today. don't know what she was thinking! i won both hands of cards (setback) i played with my friends today, haha! manhal (not even myself!) called the green juice responsible.

9h00 fbs 106 (30 lantus)
9h45 1 qt green juice (they're all the same today. need to go to the grocery tomorrow!):
cuc, celery, cilantro, ginger, lemon, dandelion, collards
nice long nap!
4h00 1 qt green juice
8h00 1 qt green juice
9h30 bs 212 (3 novolog)

sweet dreams of green!

juice feast day 12!

greetings of green! it's been a long but beautiful day, i'm tired and looking forward to some much needed sleep. i've not experienced much pain today but have a headache right now, concentrated behind my right eye. damage to the eyes is a common complication of diabetes; however, my doctor always says my eyes are clear of any diabetic complication. i wonder if there is something hidden back there that is healing? i can only hope. i am still releasing infection from my open wounds, always wonderful. and now little bits are emerging from pockets of existing ones, maybe the cause of their not being fully healed until the present. i also had some emotional release around 9, remembering vividly emergency room experiences from when i could not stand the pain anymore of wounds so impacted with infection i could not move or function normally. these memories were painful to relive but joyful in their release. i expect more. and happily :)

8h00 fasting bs 89 (30 units lantis)
8h30 1/2 qt green juice: celery, cuc, dandelion, lemon, few grapes, ginger
10h00 (while teaching! weird to experience, but it was calling to my body, my body was calling it!! qt of first juice: celery, cuc, dandelion, lemon, grapes
12h30 bs 179 (2 units novolog)
4h00 1 qt green juice: celery, cuc, dandelion, cilantro, lemon (damn, forgot ginger!), sea salt (1 unit novolog)
10h20 bs 127, 1 qt green juice: celery, cuc, dandelion, ginger (lemon got to me today, couldn't take any more!) beeeeeee pollen!


making my last juice i realized again (i do so every day, but deeply today!) my love for cucumber, celery and ginger! i am loving life! today i got to catch up on some juicefeasting.com videos, enjoyed angela's about loving juicing so much she wanted to keep doing it. i feel that way, it's going to be hard going back to solid foods. but i know i'm eventually going to get used to it, and love eating raw. i will still start my days with a green juice. makes me feel wonderful, and my body remembers the love and joy of sharing morning green juices with gaya during my first experience of rawness! it was beautiful to share that with her, i'm eternally grateful for her love and guidance, for her introducing me to raw, green, loving nutrition. to loving my body, to offering it acts of love -- green love food and loving touch. i leave you tonight with this verbal offering of love thanks to beautiful gaya. a demain

day 11

it's been a while, my friends. the juicing has been on, and my life's been busy. after a sad and painful departure, i return to chapel hill -- and since have been revisiting many connections with people here. all have been extremely positive, and most people very interested in my juicing (especially my friend jackie, who i feel may become my yoga pal/guru here in the hill -- yes!). i had a great experience today teaching the first class of my summer school session of french 2. what fun, it went very well! i felt quite at ease, on target, had fun with my students -- and we connected well for the first day. i'm really looking forward to being able to challenge myself, to explore my teaching at this time of transformation for the most positive! and with boundaries set pretty much only by myself i know i can be fully in my power. i feel and know that this will be a great experience! also got really positive, quite flattering and inspiring feedback from my mentor hassan today on some recent writing. i'm so inspired now to write and to teach!

my grocery experiences here have been good, though expensive -- oy! my friend manhal lent me a great blender! it's slower with a few intricacies but i'm quite happy with the green vibrancy of my juices. the first sip overwhelms me these days with a rush of happiness! love and thankfulness from my body! it's quite powerful and intimate, this connection with my body through nutritive juice! i can't wait to explore it more!

the most notable bodily transformation is the expulsion of toxins through my skin. a major goal of mine for this juice feast is to heal existing and preclude future skin problems -- essentially boils produced by a melange of toxin buildup in my lymphs and large/underdeveloped folical ducts. they're painful, tolling emotionally and keep me from my full potential as a teacher and a student. this release/expulsion is fascinating, gross, wonderful all at the same time. small bumps are trying to release toxins on my scalp, which has in the past also been a problem area for such infections. it's beautiful, so cleansing, feels so incredibly pleasurable and painful at the same time!

my blood sugars have really stabilized -- i'll post specifics in the future! with only 2 in the 200s, it has been under 160 since i left! tuesday i drank 3 1/2 quarts of juice, yesterday 3 1/2 quarts, and today i made it to 4! yay! here are my ingredients (mmmm!):
celery, cucumber, lemon, ginger, romaine, kale, collards, dandelion greens, spinach, grapes! (just a few!)
must say i miss the vitamix a little. miss gaya and juicing with her very much. i also miss making juices for g! putting love, thought, delicious green together for her was really special for me. i can't wait to do it again!!

love joy clarity green surround me, entrance me, envelope me.
a demain

Day Eight

Sharted this morning. it was not awesome. By the sea quenc of photos at the right, my amazing state of emotional fluidity is well-noted.

7:00 MSM water with lemon (1QT)

7:20: bloodsugar 231

8:45: 271

12am: 119

Green Juice:

cucumber, celery, fennel, kale, romaine, lemon, ginger, cayenne, sea salt

*1/2 QT at 11:30

*1QT at 2:45

*1QT at 6pm

Supplements:

probio's, gse, n-zimes, vit c, green pow, bee pollen, psyllium/bentonite shake, Arise n' Shine herbs

yay! Day Seven

Felt good most the day. 

June 15, day's juices (1Q):

1) cucumber, celery, dino kale, ginger, cilantro, parsley, lemon, probiotics, vitamin c, enzymes, gse, cayenne, sea salt

2) celery, spinach, cucumber, ginger, lemon, 1/2 carrot, green pow

3) bee pollen, 1/2 left-over #1, 1/2 unfinished #2.

4) salsa juice: tomato, onion, garlic, jalapeno, celery, romaine, spinach, lime

Blood Sugars:

9am: 119

3:30pm: 149

9pm: 76

2am: 226

Juice Feast Day Five and Six

I'm so tired. Rough night, but awesome mornings today and yesterday. Really enjoying making the juices. Loved the palpation Gaya gave to my feet and legs today; that truly helped me. Really liking chewing bee pollen, even more than the oil. Blood sugars are better: 109 at 1:30, and 200 at 2am (now), for which I just took 2 units. Yday at 6:30, I was at 60; 2:30, 212, 4 units; 4:30, 45. As for juices:

June 13 (Yday):

1) Celery, romaine, lemon, cilantro

2) Spinach, celery, lemon, kohlrabi, cabbage, parsley, green pow, cilantro

3) Spinach, dandelion, celery, lemon, parsley, ginger, burdock

June 14 (Today):

1) Romaine, cucumber, lemon, ginger, spinach, dandelion, lemon

2) Cucumber, celery, romaine, dandelion, lemon, ginger, parsley, green pow

3) #2 left-over, bee pollen, ginger, celery, cucumber

Supplements:

B12, MSM with lemon to start day, True Radiance C, Genuine N-zimes, Primal Defense Probiotics, Barlean's Omega Twin.

See Gaya's post from yesterday about the awesome concert we attended! 

Days Three, Four and the origins of my cleanse

though it seems like a lifetime ago, in december i had never heard of raw foods, consumed meat and dairy (though loved veggies and only ate meat when someone else prepared it), and smoked toooo much. since then, and thanks to gaya i've discovered the beauty and vibrance of raw food, green veg juices, and not smoking -- yay! yesterday was my third technical day of juice feasting, though i had a good preparatory fri sat sun, eating raw hummus fri and sat and frisee with olive oil and sea salt (i couldn't help myself -- sooo good!) sat and sun. i think it's helped me, but it's weird to be in a slightly different place than gaya in this feast. i'm loving it, despite the rough times!!

yesterday was a muuuuch better day than day 2. woke early, had msm water and made gaya's juices, saw her off to school, then skin brushed, shower with hot/cold/hot/cold/hot/cold!!, and put bentonite clay on some skin issues i'm having. i'm really looking forward to their disappearance soon!! oh and two enemas, though to my chagrin all i got was black water -- didn't eliminate at all day three actually. thanks to some senna tea last night and herbal laxes this morning i have and it feels sooooo much better. expect to be a poop monster today....

woke with low blood sugar day three (61 mg/dl) and today (67 mg/dl), mostly because i've had high readings in the evening (day two soir 241 day three soir 261) which are frustrating to me! took 5 cc novolog each night, which backfired i guess!! at 3h30 day three my bs was 231, so i took 4,5 cc novolog to counteract it. i guess these juices have a higher glycemic index than i am thinking? why is my blood sugar continually high? in addition to the novolog for caloric intake and bs adjustment, i take 30 cc lantus every morning.

day three, 3 quarts green juice: 1 stalk celery, 1 medium cucumber, collards, dinosaur kale, 2 lemons, baby romaine, parsley, 2 carrot, garlic, jerusalem artichoke

shared quart of salsa juice (mmmm) with gaya, though it raaaaaised my bs: cherry and grape tomatoes, cilantro, cabbage, celery, parsley, lemon, yellow onion, cayenne, sea salt, garlic powder and chili powder (don't know if the last two are verboten or not)

was in pretty good spirits day three, though got a little down around 4h30. had bee pollen, flax oil, green powder, enzymes, walked the boardwalk at 5 and then round 10 with gaya, very nice :)

day four, 3,5 quarts green juice: 2 heads celery, 2 lemons, 1 med carrot, kale, spinach, parsley, cilantro, burdock root, jerusalem artichoke, onion, aloe, cabbage, cayenne

6h45 fbs 67, 1 tbs raw honey, 30 cc lantus

9h00 quart 1

12h00 1/2 quart

2h00 1 quart

4hoo blood sugar 297 whhhhhy?! headache, feel sugar in blood but lethargic, 6 cc novolog

5h30 bs 167 1 quart juice

made a last juice of celery, lemon, cilantro and romaine at 9h, but just sipped it, will drink tomorrow!

probiotics, green powder, bee pollen, enzymes, barlean's, probiotics and camomile tea!

feel great going to bed, a demain!!

Juice Feast, Day TWO

salut!  today was a rough but good day juice feasting, woke with a fasting blood sugar of 191, had a green juice that beautiful gaya prepared; then a small parsley, cucumber and lemon juice round 2.  had a hard time at the grocery though, lusting after the produce -- berries were on sale, i wanted the red peppers and zucchini, and the sprouts displayed were killing me :)  later i prepared a juice of carrot (really wanted to chomp them while preparing), kale, collards, lemon, cucumber and celery!  had a little more then a liter, bringing my juice consumption total to probably 2.5 to 3 quarts today.  my blood sugar is 201 now, which is enervating, as the only glycemic things i've had today are 1 carrot and a bit of bee pollen.  hope things will be better tomorrow! ciao

Juice Feast, Day ONE

i'm juice feasting with gaya! with type 1 diabetes since age 4.  Currently, I have lower blood Sugar, 73 mg/dl at 11:45 pm. so in lieu of words, here's a video documenting the day!  love, EmRose (another raw woman warrior!)  

Craving of the weekend:  Nut/Seed pate dehydrated, wrapped with strip of raw zucchini.  :+)